facade

an image no one can see

shakes inside my mind

I must maintain the look

and cannot fail this time

safe only in dark indoors

afraid of the invisible fan club 

stand in front of the mirror

stare at your grub

I feel a pressure

only my fear can feel

created in my busy mind

until it pushes for real

examine each hair

straighten and align

I cannot let down the crowds

I must be my fine

cool, hip

dressed to not look like a douche

find my only little style

no one else wants to push

 

 

WTF

WTF?

some people in the world just suck

how could they think this up?

did they not have a mom, a home

a little blue sippy cup?

anger

REVENGE!

I NEED TO SEE IT NOW!

I feel the rage swell up inside

Let me at them!

But this is not the path to heal

anger is a purity steal,

it just postpones the real pain

waking up in the nightmare again

The good will always out shine the bad

If not, we would not be here now

to see our everyday miracles

keep this in your hearts

explain that to the children

they will understand

but never the hate of man

the danger of fun

you do not notice it

blurred by shots and beer

speeding down the highway

music too loud to hear

you do not think about it

 driving fast along the line

how close we are to tragedy

just having a good time

change songs, send a text

what exit should we take?

looking for the unmarked car

just waiting for your mistake

high fives and jokes

its all on me

strippers and coke

all for a modest fee

leave the game early

hit the atm late

just a night out with the guys

that all the girls hate

more vodka, more food

let’s drink so we can’t remember

more women, more places

hangover brain dismembered

but it was not that bad

I woke with a smile

to have a night out with the guys

it has been a while.

nesta

bob can save the world

with song and dance

unite all of mankind

give the world a chance

from the shanty town

in school and the farm

he dreamed of music

that could undo the harm

bullied because he was half

neither black or white

but found his home

in what he believed was right

he brought them together

from opposite sides

holding hands on stage

in front of the world, live

rich with friends and family

songs of faith and love

he watched the bullets zip by

with help from above

and the show went on

back out on stage

to bring the people together

dawn of a new age

the evil does not rest

neither will nesta

promoting his message

a free carribbean fiesta

Gouda

It’s like two syllables of instant fun…  Gouda.  Instead of a cheese or a town, it should be an expression of extreme happiness:  Gouda!  High Five!  Way to Gouda!

Definition per Dictionary.com:

1. a city in the W Netherlands, NE of Rotterdam.
2. a semisoft, cream-colored cheese made in Holland from whole orpartly skimmed milk.
There is not website attached to www.gouda.com, which is a shame.  Who would not want to see a page full of cheese?  And recipes?  And pictures?  Cheese porn!  I guess the domain is owned by World Media Group, and is probably up for sale if you are interested.  Maybe let’s start a kickstarter campaign to buy gouda.com and start a website?
Gouda, there is a uniqueness to the word.  The beginning “Gou”  followed by the simple “da”, any food item gains instant credibility when you add gouda to it.
“I’m making hamburgers, with lettuce, onions, bacon and gouda.”
“Gouda?!? Damn dude, is it the Superbowl?”

Slather

This is the first post in a new section called, “Words I like to say”.  The first word I enter into this category is slather.  There is a smoothness to it, and don’t rush it, start slow, then fall into the last syllable…  Slather.

Definition per Dictionary.com

1. to spread or apply thickly: to slather butter on toast.
2. to spread something thickly on (usually followed by with  ): to slather toast with butter.
3. to spend or use lavishly.
There is a www.slather.com, but it is not what you think.  It is owned by a couple of guys in Alaska, thus looks like some kind of homage to an old Jeep they call Mr. Nate.
I think of barbecue sauce or melted chocolate attached to this word, ” The wings are slathered in a barbecue-chocolate sauce.”  
Are there any bad connotations out there?  I was slathered in army ants?  No way.  
I was slathered in high priced hookers, hell yeah!  Now that’s a party!  If I become a famous rapper, I might have to make my rap name out of this, like MC SLATH-HER or something…

change the channel

That is enough already

highlights, lowlights

tears and crashes

incurable rashes.

The same ugly images

over and over and over

same awful story

told, sold, printed and posted.

I’ve seen enough already

he has a gun, but no legs

no more guns

everybody begs.

Time to change the channel

show me something new

hundreds of options to click to

easy to change red to blue.

I get that its pertinent

relevant and important

there are other stories in the world:

man bites dog,

boy meets girl.

But its the same old crap

the same dead horse joke

same stories, over and over

please pass me the remote

Free Like an MP3

I got a new timeline,

byline, tagline…

Take a dish rag to the hash tag.

Time to restart the ipod;

control-alt-delete…

Make a trojan scan for the boogie man.

Today is a new number,

workday & weekend update.

A new host with more gigs,

bigger pipes to impress the bigs.

The New New Year URL,

just champagne dropped.

That Prince song sing along,

we all photoshop.

Hardwire the toast you gave,

among the pixels and confetti.

Set it free like an MP3,

for your new year to be ready.

zombie

I am a zombie

zombie go, zombie stop

point and click

now back to the top.

 

Moan and groan

meet the morning hoard

plugged into the brain’s

invisible zombie cord.

 

Dress me…  Dress me…

blend in with the Walkers

just like the commercial

magic voice talkers.

 

Feed me…  Feed me…

merge into one lane

follow the limping crowd

99 cent drive-thru brain.

 

Zombie up…  Zombie down…

just do as you are told

print, fax, email

zombie heart is cold.

 

Zombie stop, zombie go

merge into the horde again

a moaning lurch home

let the programming begin.

what if man

It starts with good intention,

positive thoughts,

a mind forged invention.

I can do this!

Envision the ceremony,

dreams of champagne,

and perfect matrimony.

Then I see them,

withdraw as they near,

it’s the What If Men,

carrying all I fear.

They force you to look,

see how you will fall,

broken in a ditch,

with no one to call.

Resist!

Kick them out of your vision,

take one more step,

out of the What If prison.

Send them elsewhere,

what if the dream is true?

Turn the What If Men

into a better part of you.