I need this
little nuggets I hide in my pocket
this is part of my smile
half a picture in a locket
this is mine
late at night, together with alone
I chose with my eyes open
dial the number on the phone
piece of unique
this separates me from the robots
the pictures you remember
times never forgot
spice of nature
the kick that ignites a spark
major details, minor differences
in every beat of every heart
Hi Internet People!
Today was the first time I ever voted besides a high school election, and I graduated in 1991. Lazy, yes. Disinterested, totally. “Who cares?” Yup. Electoral College crap, I agree. I saw my lack of voting as a statement against things I did not like. I choose NOT to pick a lesser of two evils. I choose NOT to waste my time waiting in line to place a vote for the President that is just for show (popular vote). Right, wrong or just plain ignorant, that was my gig. However, this morning I woke up, and decided to try this voting thing out. I had my choice in mind, I knew where to go (thank you google maps) and figured it was time to cash in on a perfectly good excuse to arrive late for work. “I was like, voting.” I pulled up to the ‘Voting Hall of Freedom’, and got in line. It moved along, and engaged in small talk with people who are my neighbors I did not know. Saw a few familiar faces. Saved a spot in line for an elderly woman with crutches and a cast on one foot while she sat down. I watched a salty old veteran inch along with a painful grunt every time they leaned on his surgically replaced knee. The machine that scanned the ballots broke, the line stalled. People complained. I heard, “They should have TWO machines!” a hundred times. I kept calm, tried to make frustrated people smile, “Hey, I could be at work right now, anything beats that.” And I realized how important this voting thing is. To the veterans who fought, to the youth who read their ipads, to the suit on the blackberry, the mother tending to her baby in a stroller. All taking time to wait in this dreaded line of standing, and cast a vote. They did pass out dum-dum lollipops, I was lucky and got a blue one. The line grew, complaints echoed, my left butt cheek hurt. It was in a kindergarten. Small. Cramped. The line snaked around, over down and around, and only grew in size. It felt like the American Sampler Platter of People trying to get one last ride on Space Mountain before it closed for the day. Two hours in, and people were finally moving. The scanner scanned. I saw people with stickers on their chests. The man in front of me hugged the woman supervising the scanner after his ballots went through without a problem. I told her she was doing a great job, as she listened to the same barks over and over, and did her best to keep the show moving with a smile. The retired couple behind me mock cheered as I went 4-4 on the scanning of the 4 page ballot. But you could feel the pride. Plenty of complaints, but no quitters. You could feel the camaraderie, stranger neighbors talking to each other about what they were going to be late for. I proudly pasted on my sticker, my American Badge of Freedom. I gave a high five as I slithered through the crowd, ” Good luck!”, I said to a friend with about 100 people in front of him. And it was all worth it, the wait, the bitching, the voting, the cramp in my hand from holding this monster super-legal sized ballot for 2-1/2 hours. All worth it. So, the point of this ramble is, get out there and feel American. Get out and vote. It’s only once every four years, and enjoy the melting pot of voters and beliefs as you wait in line. Absorb the America. Time to get back to work.
I cover it up when I leave
myself curled up in a ball
fetal protection from the masses
safety from the fall
its the pure center of me
that little piece of personal gold
the same things makes us different
yet I cover it in my hold
its too precious to let out
too sincere for the world to see
the naked decisions of the present
the entire makeup of me
then you see someone who glows
exposing their core with a smile
he is dirty, pushing a cart
story telling with style
he makes it look easy
with nothing he owns the world
I need open my shades
allow my soul to uncurl
sitting in the back of the hall
next to the president’s son
I notice the dirty jewels
and pick them up for fun
I must return them
find out whose these are
no time for that, he said
let’s do shots at the bar!
but these precious little trinkets
someone must miss
I picked them from the dust
and hoped for a wish
now I squeeze into the mayhem
he already has a martini
I pretend to care
but just don’t have it in me
he spills a drink
he is hairy, sweaty and rude
he is the president’s son
deal with the attitude
I think about the dusty dreams
secure in my pocket
I must polish them shiny
the ring, necklace and the locket
But he grabs me again
introduces the decorated stiffs
I shake hands and protect the precious
before I get to the edge of the cliff
but I know I don’t belong
the black tie is too tight
but to leave all of the people
and this so-called special night?
he is too busy making the fakes laugh
and glaring at the king
when my father walks up and asks,
“Did you happen to find my ring?”
what is america?
what is the dream
who is uncle sam
what does he mean?
work for forty years
most of my life
retire old and grumpy
still with my third wife
get a “good job”
after your degree
for the rest of your life
you belong to me
don’t become locked down
don’t become a slave
chase after your dream
it’s your life to save
I am not the margin man
who squeezes
teases and lies
for all the percents he can
I am not shiny gold
waxed like a mirror
in the neighbor’s eye
it never gets old
I am not filled with acid
rage in the brain
I am not looking for pay back
wash away drain
I try to breath slow
thankful
I try to see both sides
listen
I try to embrace the journey
positive
I try to reach out
with purity of humanity…
alive
no place to hide
nothing is safe now
its already inside
he died from the cow
we pollute our bodies
just like the environment
then they conduct studies
paid for by the government
you cannot drink the water
never have sex unprotected
you cannot eat the meat
the animal is infected
cannot swim in the ocean
no playing in the sand
there is too much radiation
buried under this land
not too much milk
mindful of all the germs
what will they do
when it gets in the sperm?
awake like the first day
smile, breathe and see
stretch into morning
and the day yet to be
realize how lucky you are
another warm sunrise
hope to see the night
with the same sunrise eyes
let the petty thoughts go
different is not a crime
its not my store, bank or road
where I observe the angry minds
stop pointing at others
how they walk their life
the strange looking car
or how they dress their wife
appreciate the differences
a new day, a new toy
embrace the variety
and scatter your joy
laugh at yourself
often and much
positive comedic relief
grumpy hearts to touch
wise professors learn my signals
even in flip-flops and shorts
intelligent conversations
relevant points and retorts
sand castles with the kids
high fives and scraped knees
run around with no age
hiding from my nephews in the leaves
I earned the praise
worked hard and true
moved on from the liars
false friends unlike you
stop and breathe the sunrise
appreciate nature’s tiny beauty
seek talent in the meek
help others find their duty
combine love for a gift
to carry on our name
a garden patch of knowledge
generational seedlings grow the same
teach the kids to play
stand up and live together
help one soul to the light
these efforts last forever
it is not about the masses
just one single grain on the beach
one mind you can help
build a bridge for better reach
then sit back on the porch of life
as ideas grow to be
I remember the valuable lessons
my father taught me